Discovering beauty part 2

Hey how have you all been?
 Today I'm going to continue on our journey to discovering beauty.. (I'm sorry for letting you wait this long) If you haven't read the first part please check it out before reading this one, so that you can understand this one better. Click here.
Now I'm going to go on with part 2.

So I had to start accepting myself as beautiful.. I think it was the hardest thing i ever had to do. How can you just start loving yourself after hating yourself for so long? Honestly it's just impossible or maybe it isn't..
Let me give you guys a few tips on how to actually gain confidence. Some might seem stupid, but trust me they actually help.. A LOT !!

1) Surround yourself with the right crowd. Whether you like it or not people influence you constantly. If you're around people who are constantly talking negative about you, how do you expect to become positive? Again it's not impossible, but negativity will just make it harder to stay positive. It shouldn't be the group of people with the newest make-up or the people with the strictest diets, it's the ones with the positive mindset. The ones who will encourage you to achieve your goal at all costs!!

2) Never give up!! I know this is obvious and we all know this one, but actually try to do it!!

3) Wake up every morning stand in front of the mirror and call yourself pretty. I know this is a very childish one, but it does work.. if you do this for some time, you will start to believe it..

4) IGNORE NEGATIVE COMMENTS!!! They're all lies. The people who say negative things about you are usually jealous or they're just being childish and most of the time they don't even know you, so don't let they're comments affect you.

5) Please don't try to hide your face behind layers of make-up!! I know make-up is nice and we like to use it, but girl: you are also beautiful without it!! if you're using make-up to "cover up flaws" lemme tell you this: it's not working and you're waisting time and money! If you want to wear make-up: okay, but make sure your reason is not to "cover the flaws".

Okay so here are  tips to start with.. It's not always an easy journey, but the journey really is worth it!
I wish you all a lovely and blessed Friday!!

~Musa

I love...

I love talking
I love meeting new people
I love socializing
I love going hard
I love being spontaneous
I love being outgoing

But...

 
It isn’t because I love talking, that I don’t have secrets.

It isn’t because I love meeting new people that I will befriend or trust them all.

It isn’t because I love socializing that I’m good at it.

It isn’t because I love going hard, that sometimes I don’t feel like going home.

It isn’t because I love being spontaneous, that I don’t feel shy sometimes.
It isn’t because I love being outgoing that I never feel embarrassed.

Don't assume things that you don't know.. 

~Musa

BACIB part 7: Faith or Fear

It has been a while hasn't it? Okay today I would really love to share something I realised just recently.
Some time ago I wasn't really feeling myself. I would have so many mood swings and wouldn't understand why. I would have so many negative thoughts and saw no hope in anything that was going on. I would isolate myself from the people whom I trusted most and go talk to others, just because I didn't want to bother them with my problems while they probably had problems of their own. I felt like if I would they wouldn't understand me either, why would they if even I don't understand myself?? I really didn't get why I was acting that way. I shut myself completely out without saying a word to them. I'm really the worst. Up till last Sunday I didn't understand why I was acting that way.

 I didn't even want to find out why. I just ignored everything and just lived on. For the first time in life I ran away from a problem, I was enjoying the current situation so I just let it be and went on.. It was strange, because I hate running away from my problems. It's just not me at all. The more time went by the more I realised I wasn't me. I was far from Musa. I really wasn't Musa at all. I really didn't know how to deal with it or change it. I just went along with the flow and ignored the fact that I had started hurting others. I really didn't care. For the first time I thought I was thinking of myself and just let everything slide.. I wasn't making sense at all. What started as let me not tell and by that not hurt others ended up being, let me enjoy myself without caring about others. I saw their pain and still I didn't do anything. I didn't know what to do. I just didn't get myself..

Last Sunday the title of the message was "Behold the man" based on John 19:4. It was all about behold, now the literal meaning of behold = see, observe,.. It was about Jesus who was man and God at the same time. They looked at 3 different things that Jesus did where you could see that He was man AND God.It was also about faith and fear. Faith= the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. Fear= your doubt, your distraction. (This part is just to help you understand the symbolics and the rest of the story)
Between everything that was said I realised something: I had to behold myself and see where I went wrong. You know that when you're scared or when you're strong, it's a choice that u consciously make? Yeah well.. Here you go if you didn't know (what I didn't either before I heard the message) I realised that my feeling down and loosing hope was a choice that I made. I chose for fear over faith. I was running away because I was scared and I knew that I couldn't do it myself. I don't know why I let it slip my mind that God doesn't want you to do it yourself. I don't know where my faith went to. Sometimes choosing fear seems the easiest thing to do, but trust me the easy way always turns out harder than the difficult way. I don't know why I didn't just go to my friends and tell them the truth from the beginning. I didn't only loose faith in general, but also in my friends. This is the worst thing I've ever done, because loosing faith in life and friends, to me it's like loosing faith in God, because God works through other people and through different circumstances.


Conclusion: always be aware of what you choose: faith or fear? The way you can make sure that you always make the right choice, is by making sure that your foundation is right!! If you are a believer, you have to make sure u know and understand enough of the Word, so that you can stand firmly in your faith and know on what your faith is based! Keep practising your faith and keep growing in faith, so that your choices will be made based on the truth! Even if you don't believe make sure you check your choices and make sure that they are based on the truth. On top of that, be honest to yourself and others ( lol I'm saying this cause it will really help you.. I also had to get real with myself and now I also have to be honest with others..) I'm not saying this like its easy please don't take it that way it really isn't. Like no way.. Some times you'll go through things the hard way, but that always results to the best!

~Musa

I would do such a thing!?!

Okay, today I'm going to finish the story I wrote last week: "I never thought that..." So if you haven't read that one yet, go and read that first before you read this.

She told me that she had gone on a date with him, but she didn't expect the date to end the way it did.
They went for a walk and talked and laughed. After that, they went to his house. She told me: "he told me that his house wasn't far and that we could go and rest there for a bit before I go home. So I went. When I reached there and entered the house I felt a little strange. His bed was in the living room, he told me that was because they didn't have enough rooms, so yeah. Then he told me to sit down and I sat on the chair next to the bed, then he started asking me to join him on the bed an sit next to him. After denying quite a few times, I gave in and laid myself on the bed next to him.. It was extremely awkward. I really didn't know what to do.. He started tickling me and touching me.. I didn't know what to think of it all.. I told him to stop, but it just escalated from there. The next thing I noticed was that he was on me trying to take y clothes off.. I told him to stop and tried to get off the bed, but he pushed me back on it.. I told him that I didn't like it and that he should really stop and get off me, but he didn't. He took all my clothes off and started touching me. I felt really uncomfortable and really hated the way he was acting. I tried my best to get him off me, but he was too strong. I kept resisting, but nothing worked. I felt so helpless. I thought of my morals and boundaries that I was crossing with this. All of a sudden, I felt a lot of pain. It hurt so much, I had never felt such pain before. I told him to stop, but he just wouldn't. The pain just got worse and I didn't know what to do. I felt so powerless. I couldn't do anything to stop him and he just kept going. It was so frustrating. I just gave in.. After some time he finally stopped and I went home. I was so scared. I kept wondering how I could explain this at home and to my friends. And what if.. what if.. no no no that can't be...

Moral of the story:
Sometimes you make mistakes that you didn't want to make, in this case it was the fact that she went to his house without knowing him well or knowing what was going to happen. You should always stick to your morals and keep your boundaries and never give in! If you suspect something strange always try to talk to someone about it before something happens. If something happens don't give up or loose hope, learn from it and become stronger!

For this post even if it isn't a BACIB I have a song too:

Warrior by Demi Lovato 

~Musa